Hello. I do not want to take up space here being melodramatic. But I care about what I do here, and I have something to apologize for.
I am so sorry I deleted two of my posts, and all the comments and the nice pictures that went with them. I am so sorry. I don't even know if anyone noticed or cared, but I am so sorry.
I have had a Very. Hard. Week. Hirram, you are not responsible for my reactions to things. Your solution, which I did see before I had my temper tantrum and decided in a childish fit to Take My Balls and Go Home, your solution to link to the article that so upset me, was sweet and smart and really did solve my problem (which was that I had been so enjoying a few of the discussions here, and I could not scroll down to them without seeing the details that were Upsetting to me for reasons I will not explain). But I was already in a too emotional state, and I became very angry when I read one or two things other people said about it.
It destroys the continuity of this board when people do what I did (delete their posts). I have been so annoyed when people have done it in the past. Now I am like Katie. How embarrassing. I am really and truly chagrined. I would never have predicted I would do something like that.
Cal (I think): thank you for making the pictures I so rudely deleted. I enjoyed so much that you did that.
Anyone who read those posts, particularly the one about Amber (it was cathartic for me to write about her and to read the comments): thank you. I am happy when I can share my misery with you. I am so sorry that in two quick clicks all your work and thoughts are gone. What a stupid thing. How ridiculous I feel.
Fab: I am sorry to have caused a little more trouble on a project you work so hard on.
I have not gone to read that thread since that one regrettable moment. I just can't do that right now, although I am sure I deserve to.
Instead, I decided last night to stay up late and watch Season 3 of Doctor Who. I have been saving it for a Special Occasion Ahh David Tenant, would that your reign had lasted forever! I bought my daughter the 10th doctor's screwdriver for Christmas. If it worked, I would undo this mistake. For the thirty dollars I paid, it SHOULD work. But it does not. Sigh.
So, all I can say is, one more time for good measure: I am sorry.
If it makes you feel any better, I'm a regular reader of this site, and I have no idea what you're talking about.
ReplyDeleteBella, you have my permission to watch as much Doctor Who as you can shoehorn into your schedule. I got to read the posts, but really, it's not a big deal.
ReplyDeleteHi, Bella--
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to lose Amber, since she rung a bell for me (and I, too, value the ongoing conversation on the page, and the ability to link back when appropriate), but I don't think you've been nearly as disruptive as you feel (and you're certainly going to have to work on your tantrum skills if you hope to exceed Katie, whoever, or whatever combination of persons, she may be). Some of us -- usually the habitually kind and considerate -- tend toward internal storms, and then worry that the bad weather has affected others, when in fact they've been blithely going about their own business, quite unaware. There might even be an argument for our storming a little more obviously at times, when something really important is at stake (but only so much can be at stake on a blog).
And I'm beginning to think I need to watch Dr. Who myself, since I feel sadly out of touch with some of the pop-culture references running around the internet (though I do now know, thanks to googling a while back, what a Tardis is).
Seeing as I am sooooo perfect, I will accept your apology...grudgingly. ;-)
ReplyDeleteBella, I think we all have these moments when the misery overwhelms us. We can't take it out on our snowflakes or gradflakes or adminflakes, so it comes out in strange ways.
ReplyDeleteI think this was a larger deal to you personally -- I'm not sure which post got deleted from memory -- but this follow up was touching.
I hope things get better in the coming weeks. If not, you can always vent here.
Bella, I'm sorry you were having a hellish week. And what better place to vent than taking it out on someone who would never forgive? :o)
ReplyDeleteYou need to apologize for apologizing, which makes me curious as to what you did. Because I have no fucking clue what is going on, and I find that pretty unforgiveable.
ReplyDeleteOn a completely pedantic note... wasn't Patrick Troughton the Doctor during the third season of Dr. Who? Or was it still William Hartnell?
ReplyDeleteShe means the third season since the reboot in 2005. David Tennant is technically the tenth doctor. Eleven is even better.
ReplyDeleteFeel better. <3
ReplyDeleteIf you truly feel you did wrong you may do penance by watching all of the 6th Doctor's first season on DVD. Well, OK, that's a bit harsh. Maybe just "The Twin Dilemma" and any episode with Adric.
ReplyDeleteMAM, are you serious? Adric should be the patron Companion of College Misery: he did something useful with a mathematics degree!
ReplyDeleteThe next time a student REALLY gets to me, I am going to point to him or her and scream out "EXTERMINATE!!!!"
ReplyDeleteSeriously. I am working on my inflection to get it just right.