|If nobody comments|
on THIS, I'm switching
the gin with poison.
Kidding. No, really,
I'm a pretty active member of the page, both as a poster and a commenter.
Sometimes my posts generate a lot of comments. That makes me feel good. It makes me feel like I'm worthy. That's wrong, isn't it?
Then other times I think up the world's greatest witty comment. I work on it. I craft it. I try it out loud.
Then I post it, carefully, right where it will work best.
And sometimes, like a few days ago, nobody replies. Nobody mentions it. People seem to be actively ignoring it, the brilliance, the wonder, the perspicacity.
And you know what I feel then? Shame. Embarrassment. I am covered by dismay and failure.
I swear to myself that I'll quit coming here. Goddammit to hell. You can all go to hell. My hard work, my engagement, it's all for naught.
Q: That's insane, right? Am I alone?