Monday, August 26, 2013
It's Annie in Akron's First Day.
I taught as a TA in grad school. I even taught at a high school very briefly. I understand what standing in front of a room is.
I'm not afraid I don't know anything. I'm not worried about my clothes or my accent or food in my teeth.
But I am afraid. And I'm sick. I've been up since 3 am throwing up. I didn't sleep a wink the last two nights.
I'm going to be a college professor in about three hours for the first time. And I'm afraid I've made a mistake with my career. My cohort of grad school buddies tell horror stories of ill-mannered students, lecherous colleagues, and a system that doesn't work. I'm afraid a student will challenge my authority, stand up and face me down. I'm afraid I might get flustered, bothered. I'm afraid I might faint.
Why have I done this?
I'm watching the clock and it's racing.